I'm sorry & I love you.

I did it again.
Why am I a magnet to quarrels?
Why does every conv with me have to end up with me making us quarrel?
What the fuck is wrong with me?
No sleep tonight/ no food for idk how long.

I'm sorry, LIM DING YANG.
I've gotta change my effed up attitude.
I'm horrible.
I'm effing useless.

I swear, it's gonna be different from tomorrow onwards.
Please trust me, just this once.
This is the last thing I'll ever ask of you.

I WILL CHANGE.
If after today we still quarrel, kill me scold me beat me.
Do whatever you want.
I deserve it.


This time, I chose to cry in silence because I really dont want you to feel bad at all.
I was the one at fault.
I dont think I deserve your forgiveness.
It's painful & heart-wrenching.
But I think you've heard enough.
I'm sorry.