Pushing me away; every last word every single thing you say.

BABY, PLEASE CHEER UP! ;)

I've been so suey since 09 started that my dad gave me a ping an fu & I started wearing it today. Everyday, there's always unavoidable drama & it's killing me! Had Pastamania for lunch with Xiaogirl, Shandy, Valerie, Huishan & Chewsiang. I'm so pathetic, I can never finish my food ;( I'm a sinner everyday, I swear. & it's so irritating!

Yesterday was Beach Rd for lunch with Momster's side, again. Walked around Bugis, again. ICANDIEINTHERE. Went home for Chinese tuition, not as bad as I'd pictured it to be. Heeheee. Went to make a police report thereafter & headed home. I still feel like complete & utter crap cause I've practically thrown $800 away. F!

& I swear I dont have parents. Kay, maybe I do but they're not parents to me. How can they show favouritism just like that? Hello? Ring a bell! I'm just here! At least if you wanna show favouritism, do it behind my back. Like I wouldnt know if you bought life insurnace for kor but not for me & I dont care. At least, dont let me see it please. Whatever I do now, has got nothing to do with yall. I study hard not to please yall. Frankly speaking, it's for my own future. Fret not, I wont put yall in a nursing home next time. I'll put yall in IMH instead. The nurses are 10X more alert there. So you wont die if something ever happens to you. Yayyyyy for you ;) Boo for me ;(

My listening ear still wont talk to me. Sighs.

My parents are as good as dead.

& my baby♥ has to cheer up!

I promise to study an extra 1 hour everyday (excluding time to do homework). THIS IS FOR MY OWN EFFING GOOD! I've calculated my potential L1R2B2 & guess what, it's 20. WTF. That's like twice the points I wanted.

Before I go, I hope those who didnt do well for O's will stop mulling over it & look on the brighter side. There's always a 2nd chance & it's all up to you. For those who did exceptionally well, please dont ever take it for granted. & congrats cousin Eddie. 13 points is like F impossible for me.

Okay, there's this mosquito & it is feasting on my blood like no tomorrow. I think I'm dying ;(


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